It's The Hardest Thing I'll Ever Have To Do

No, not look him in the eye and tell him I don't love him. {B^)

Rather, its to keep my mouth shut. It's absolutely killing me. Because what I really want to do is tell him outright that he should see me trying and appreciate it, god dammit. But instead, I have decided to let the whole thing go. I made a list of pros and cons and let me tell you... cons, hands down.

Pros

• Attractive (Very)


• Dedicated to his plan


• Great Physique


• Focused on his business


• Driven


• Calm


• Fun and playful

Cons

• Attractive - I'm a very jealous person


• Plans without goals


• Ideas without a clear vision


• Atlanta - as in, he's not going with (worth 5 points)


• Less than 4 months 'til departure for Atlanta (worth another 5 points)


• Still lives at home without definitive plan to move out


• Fluctuating employment


• No desire to step into adulthood


• Refusal to be responsible for self


• Instability


• Not focused on building a relationship


• We broke up for a reason

That's just some of the stuff I wrote down. The lists went on for pages and included some raunchy stuff like, Pro - Grrrrrreat in bed and Pro - Huge cock, but since my mom reads this page I thought that'd be inappropriate to post.

And just one more. Con - I want this off my fucking brain already! The only way to do that is to trash the wrapper.