Friday, May 7, 2010

It's The Hardest Thing I'll Ever Have To Do


No, not look him in the eye and tell him I don't love him. {B^)




Rather, its to keep my mouth shut. It's absolutely killing me. Because what I really want to do is tell him outright that he should see me trying and appreciate it, god dammit. But instead, I have decided to let the whole thing go. I made a list of pros and cons and let me tell you... cons, hands down.


Pros


  • Attractive (Very)

  • Dedicated to his plan

  • Great Physique

  • Focused on his business

  • Driven

  • Calm

  • Fun and playful

Cons



  • Attractive - I'm a very jealous person

  • Plans without goals

  • Ideas without a clear vision

  • Atlanta - as in, he's not going with (worth 5 points)

  • Less than 4 months 'til departure for Atlanta (worth another 5 points)

  • Still lives at home without definitive plan to move out

  • Fluctuating employment

  • No desire to step into adulthood

  • Refusal to be responsible for self

  • Instability

  • Not focused on building a relationship

  • We broke up for a reason

That's just some of the stuff I wrote down. The lists went on for pages and included some raunchy stuff like, Pro - Grrrrrreat in bed and Pro - Huge cock, but since my mom reads this page I thought that'd be inappropriate to post.


And just one more. Con - I want this off my fucking brain already! The only way to do that is to trash the wrapper.

3 comments:

  1. Way to leave out the raunchy!

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  2. You can find those pros in other people. If there were some more unusual pros, it might balance the scales a bit.
    Good luck!

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  3. @CBS111 - You know how I roll.

    @Sarah P - He has my mom as an ally. Period.

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